Light My Fire

oh yes, i do love you.

2009-08-01T00:55:00.002+08:00

self note :

Revise Bio : Sexual Reprod. In Humans & Inheritance.

Do ACE Presentation : settle the template, research on social justice, do slides

Read History Readings : Prepare for essay.

Read up on berlin Blockade

Revise Stats : Box & Whiskers, Quartile Ranges, Percentages, Diagrams etc.

Finish up HCL presentation.

oh and i do love you, paperstar

light my fire

2008-11-05T23:13:00.001+08:00

well well well.
i'm here to blog at this pathetic blogging system again. D:

i duno what to say.
my life's kind of messy.
blehhhhhh.

holidayyyy hommeeewooorrkkk iii'''mmmmm cooommmiiinnngggggg~~~~~~~~~~

sad face D:

2008-08-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

lol. i was thinking that day.
my life was kinda weird throughout my secondary life so far.

sec 1 - IT'em. it was a ITem year. every thing i did circled around ITem. when i go out, it had to be ITem. IT'em was my life. it was a ideal cca. i loved it to bits.
but all it going to change?

sec 2 - x & blogskins.
it had to be x. both the band and someone. X played a big part of my life. it changed my life. jrock was introduced. i was influenced into it, insanity takes off after me. x was worst, i seem to be obsessed with x. im glad it is over. blogskins. i get to know jacq and a couple more like bessy and mad. tho we have not been talking much these days. life is getting busy.... although i've quitted. i must thank blogskins for letting me know these guys.

sec 3- LUNA SEA, Kiyoharu, laraku, gazette @ SGCLUB and more...
the breakthrough was from last.fm. knowing shana and kozika.
LUNA SEA was not influencial. but still. it was kinda cool.
Kiyoharu. wow. is there anything to say about this? <3
laraku, well, it redefined jrock. definitely.
gazete is cool!
SGCLUB let me have the chance to know alot of pple. alot of jrockfans.
its kinda cool.

what is yr 4 going to be?

2008-08-04T18:14:00.002+08:00

i must say,
leading a double life sucks.

on one side, i have to hang out with the japanese haters. (but well, maybe hentai lovers D:) but they are sure cool in the other sense like com games and outings and stuffs.

on the other side, i have a bunch of pple who are far older than me, but the love for japan is even more crazy compared to me. however, i seem weird, seem.... left out....because of the age gap.. well im not sure... im seem to be in the middle of this transition.... from....breaking away from this.... old TJ that you know.... transforming into a .. more.... im not sure...

whatever it is, i just wish that i stay happy. and not with this emo crap conflict within myself. one point trying to pull back to the dhs lifestyle. and another me, is trying to be someone different. im not sure what to say. im not sure who i like, and who i hate. i do not even know what do i want now. *slits wrist 10000 times*. screw this, im not getting any better from my emo.

emo z0r XD

"mescaline anyone?"

2008-07-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

lol.
i must clarify

TJ is my initials. eh. gotcha?
teejay is how you pronounce it, yea practice it.
tianjuen is my full name. can't pronounce it? go back to the 2nd sentence of this paragraph.

:D

2008-06-28T22:52:00.001+08:00

after everything.
my life is settled...
i'm back (:

hAPPY BIRTHDAY?

2007-11-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

as requested from bren.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BREN~~~

wishing you a old 14~~~~

it is declared that 1st NOV as BREN day. whee~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

TJ~!

(as copied from psychedlic.wordpress.com)

hAPPY BIRTHDAY?

2007-11-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

265th page

2007-10-27T01:14:00.000+08:00

it's currently late in the night @ 1.15 am and here am i blogging.
stupid me.
it's seriously sad to hear everyone splitting. i wonder why i din cry yesterday.
maybe i am not emotional enough.

maybe i shall write a msg to every bondian soon. i'm not sure.
haizzz.
it's time to log into my wordpress

2007-10-26T15:11:00.000+08:00

Tagged by Bess less than 10 hrs ago i suppose

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
1. LUNA SEA+DREAM THEATER(2008)+LINKIN PARK+ X JAPAN (2008 SPRING tour)
2. CANON 40D
3. alot alot alot of hide & X JAPAN merchandises
4. Cinch an award in Robo Grand Prix 2008.
5. Enter triple science

encore wish(ok i know that's cheating):
6.A HAPPY AND HEALTHY FAMILY (:

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tag you is?
Some idiotic person called bess

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
FRIENDS (like lol?)

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
1) A Aspiring Photographer
2) A damn pro blogskinner
3) Sometimes friendly?
4) a height-ist person
5) She remembers i love hide (:

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
eh... i not sure leh. i rmb that time she somehow listened me ranted sth stupid ;x

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
TJ. HAHAHAH

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
Kill myself

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
stop being such a height-ist

8. If he/she becomes your enemy you will?
hope it won't happen

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
she cool and amazing XD

13.The character(s) you love of yourself is/are?
uh. i srsly duno

14.On the contrary, the character(s) you hate of yourself is/are?
i often get wavered and undecisive

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
Myself, with the looks of hide.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 people.in alphabetic order.
1. uh.Sean?
2. Sheryl
3. Hanping
4. Carolynn
5. Jacq
6. Huien
7. Cassandra
8. Joyc
9. Liwen
10. Rumeng
Ignore the alphetbetic order. i am too lazy to go sort them out. and sry if the names looks weird.it sucks to think who has a blog.

17.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
uh. uh. hard to ans. her bf lar -.-

18.Is no.9 a male or female?
sexless. a little more to female i suppose.

19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
ack. cas and rumeng? sounds a lil' impossible.

20.How about no.8 and 5?
Joyc and Jacq -.- both J i know. but it won't work out. i love Joyc more though. haha.

21.What is no.2 studying about?
you asking me? ask if i know.

22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
online: an hour ago asking me stuffs abt NFSMW
reality: ytd 6pm on the train?

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
X JAPAN/hide/hide with spread beaver/girugämesh/MEST. we have the same music taste you know.

24.Does no.1 has any siblings
yeah. i suppose so

25.Will you woo no.3?
woo-ed. failed. lost to vivian. sighs

26.Is no.4 single?
that is sth i duno -.-

27.What's the surname of no.5?
Choo.

28.What's the hobby of no.4?
dun ask me. tada

29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
they dont know each other

30.Where is no.2 studying at?
Same school and class as me. (same answer as bess! LOL!)

31.Talk something casually about no.1?
He's gay shit. he's lovable too!

32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
yes. developed feeling actually/ correct m'dear?

33.Where does no.9 live at?
Pasir Ris if i'm not wrong/

34.What color does no.4 like?
Uh. i duno. this proves i know nuts about carolynn. HAHAHA

35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
HAHA BEST FRIENDS. all i know is tthat they raid each other friendster acct.

36.Does no.7 likes no.2?
YES,i suppose so XD

37.How do you get to know no.2?
UH UH. same class. dun ask me how i started talking to her. i'm clueless.

38.Does no.1 have any pets?
i dun think so/.

39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
she says that she is flat and after me knocking into her she is concave therefore i suppose she isn't sexy at all. HAHA.

tada~

i dun expect anyone doing this. did this out of boredom.

to find the truth in me

2007-10-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

i swear i will miss bondia.
i will miss all of you.
i love all of your.
every bondian (lol)

i will especially miss these people:
hanping,sean,daren,darick,boshi,daniel,ron,weihua,zhikai XD,sheryl,van,cas,fawn,glad &&&& so many!!!
i will miss bondia as a whole (except a few)

love ya guys (: (or girls)

2007-10-22T22:52:00.001+08:00

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!

How are you feeling today?
By Now - Best of Campus Superstar(season I)
err. rather ecstatic yet disgusted

Will you get far in life?
Inside Out - Yellowcard
err? i will know myself inside well and super far

How do your friends see you?
Rose of Pain - X
imma pain to them D:

Will you get married?
Bacteria - hide
no link at all zzz

What is your best friend's theme song?
非你莫属 - tank
LOL. i dun think so leh ^^

What is the story of your life?
Orgasm - X JAPAN
it's all about sex -.-

What is high school like?
Conspiracy - Paramore
hey, that's cool

How can you get ahead in life?
20th Century Boy - T.Rex
by going back to say hi to Hitler XD

What is the best thing about your friends?
Endless Dream - X
ahh! my dream as always!

What is in store for this weekend?
Kurenai - X
i am going to cry in deep red D:

To describe your grandparents?
Ever Free - hide with spread beaver
LOLOL. they are ever free?

How is your life going?
Say Anything - X JAPAN
true enough. it can be good or bad.

What song will they play at your funeral?
Love Replica - hide
i'm a replica of love

Will you have a happy life?
Joker - X JAPAN
lead a life of a joker. LOL

What do your friends really think of you?
Contagious - Avril Lavigine
WOAH. i am contagious XD

Do people secretly lust after you?
Beauty & Stupid - hide
OMG. "i just want to make love, i don't want to fall in love" LOL

How can I make myself happy?
X - X
yeppz. stand up and shout X

What should you do with your life?
Lean Woman Blues - T.Rex
NO LINK D:

Will you ever have children?
梁山伯与茱丽叶 - 曹格卓文萱
zzz. no romeo nor juliet here. LOL

i am sibeh lame now!

2007-10-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

YAY I CAN QUIT FUCKING SC
LIKE FINALLY.

no words can describle my emotion now.
on ~~alice~~ CLOUD 9!

whee~

ever free!

2007-10-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

& just fuck it.
can my mum just stop being so childish?
everytime only make noise make noise.
fuck off lar.

what a beautiful 260th post.

knncjb.

speed freaks, baby, rocket dive.

2007-10-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

and i am not sure why am i even maintaining this blog...
i am sick of this layout. i shall change soon when i get inspiration.
either i am going to make a layout on the song
DAHLIA - X JAPAN
or i am going to do a hide skin(for the anger of some PASSIONATE LOVE of someone else.)
or i am doing a X JAPAN skin for its 25 anniversary. (25th sept actly) LOL

i just dun utd. how can people like hide JUST LIKE THAT.
PSYCHOMMUNITY! i love him like i duno what i also haven't buy. zzz.\
walao rich people is rich people lar -.-

and i screwed my exams out~~

occasionally stealing glances
yet it seems different from last time...
ok this is not a emo post.

ugly pink machine,
TJ

2007-10-15T13:20:00.000+08:00

& i dun feel like updating this blog.
i'm sorry.

2007-09-30T00:41:00.000+08:00

so i won't update this blog anymore!

a bonus pic.

okie toodles peeps.
goodnight XD

2007-09-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

and i would like to thank mr lim and mr tan for their teaching :D i learnt alot for maths and science XD though my score din improve much.. i sustained :D
i would like to thank mrs wong too :D history lessons are just so interesting with mrs wong around. and my surprising A for term 3 :D
speechless for the rest three teachers.

but overall, i love all the teachers who taught bondia :D

hey does that includes that cute-richard-hair Mr Yan?
yes it does XD

2007-09-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

i have a longing for those memories
i feel tears falling back
yet there's nothing i can do.

random quizzz

2007-09-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

i'm having a fever. blehh.
let me do this quiz i saw on friendster

1.Your mom calls you?
Tianjuen/ SON (so cool right -.-)

2.What is your favorite shake?
errr. i duno leh XD

3. What movie/s are you waiting for?
EOYS LAR. MOVIE WHAT MOVIE

4. If you are in a band, what
position do you want to be in?
guitarist guitarist. hide <3 x japan <3

5. What is the nastiest thing you've
ever touched?
lol. not sure o.0

7. Where is the place you want to be
right now?
HOME/JAPAN/TOKYO DOME

8. What song do you listen to feel happy?
depends XD it depends

9. What movie/s made you cry?
none.

11. What is your favorite drink?
eyyy. green tea XD

12. Who is/are the cartoon characters
that you like?
lol. patrick?

13. Coke or Pepsi?
COKE :D(or none actly)

14. In a week, how many times do you
go online?
Everyday.

16. Describe yourself in one word?
tmd.

17. What's the first thing you do when
you wake up?
err. get changed?

18. What's the last thing you do
before you go to sleep?
what will happen tml

19. Something about you that you're
proud of:
i love JROCK XD

21. What's your mobile number?
not that stupid to post here yet

22. Are you happy?
Happy enough.

23. Why?
cause of i'm feeling better

24. Is there something you wanna do?
go sleep D:

25. What are you listening to right
now?
Flame (Psyence Faction edition) ended when i was answering Q24-.-
play DOUBT - hide now.

26. Complete this sentence: THE WORLD
NEEDS...
lesser dumb people

27. What was the last thing you ate?
Dinner.

28. If you were a crayon,what color
would you be?
GREEN

29. What did you eat for breakfast?
AIJISEN RAMEN XD

i hope i can get will soon too XD

YAY JOSH GOT SOTD. YAY. I LOVE YOU JOSHUA/MY TWIINAYE.XD

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Now playing: hide - ダウト
via FoxyTunes

Doubt doubt doubt you, Transient melody of disease

2007-09-22T09:43:00.000+08:00

i am in a very bad mood today and yesterday.
yesterday sucked.
and damn. the pile of homework seems never ending.
ahh damn.
AND YAY (: I WON'T BE IN INTERCLASS ANYMORE (like phew)
2H and 2K kana pwn lar.
wtf.
ok back to maths.
bb people
i am rather gg-ed

----------------
Now playing: hide - In Motion

say anything, just tell me all your sweet lies

2007-09-19T18:04:00.000+08:00

oh damn it. first i screwed science, then i screwed maths.
I BETTER NOT SCREW MY EOYS. rawr.
i am dying of depression.
so stop asking me what's wrong with me.
i FUCKED MY MATHS PAPER. HAPPY?

and so what the fuck am i still using the computer
yea i should do chinese soon.
after AoL. XD

and yea... my blog doesn't feel like a blog.
*trots off to myspace for a post*

violence in jealousy, overcoming the logic.

and i decided that everything shall be over. i shan't torture myself anymore :D

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Now playing: X Japan - Art Of Life
via FoxyTunes

update in midnight

2007-09-18T00:33:00.001+08:00

update minimal info.
shall do more tml.
buaix people :D

love ya,
TJ

2007-09-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

lol. thanks to justin <3 for this skin.
i shall update this template later.
for now. i shall mug.
i love you people
TJ

we go ahead with life

2007-07-07T16:24:00.000+08:00

we go on with life, that's part and parcel of why we are living.

things changes, and my blog is too.

i do like to thank blogger for hosting and providing blogging services for my one and a half year of blogging era. though i have used other blogging hosting, i still stick with blogger as i felt it is the most customizable.

but the only constant is change right? so there, enough of crap.

i know you want it. http://psychedlic.wordpress.com

visual dna

2007-07-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

it is rather cool. heh :D

hide merchandise!!!

2007-07-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

damn, can someone just bloody hell buy some stuffs from here.

http://visualshoxx.blogspot.com

it is a blog shop that sells X and HIDE stuffs! damn, though everything are very expensive, i am considering getting something there.

some interesting stuffs i found:

this darn cute hide speakers -.-, hide looks damn cute here !

some cute hide plushies

yet some more plushies

rocket dive singles poster(60 bucks o.0)

some magazine hide singles.

i went to pastamania today, the cheese was sjdfioasdjoiasd-licious.
it is LOVE.

rawr.. off to check my fiancial status so that i can grab some stuffs ^^

2007-06-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

so i promised to talk about ytd. hmm...

reached school at seven. dad drove me. lala~

then when to settle the logistics. then slack around, i had a whistle. LOL. then i went to kajiao yenchen during flag raising. hahahaa :D.

then they seem to have lots of courage to eat the lemon and chilli. and xingqi was imba. 1 second. gosh.

then i slacked at the PA station once again, blasting music i felt like blasting.
played in motion, dahlia, scars, white poem I, week end, joker, hurry go round, rocket dive, 1985, high school never ends, numb encore, papercut, sexyback and alot alot more too bad no without you hahha.

then went up to hall for a while to say hi to IT'em mates before coming down to help out the water gun station. then we started splashing water. i took a 1.5 litres bottle round asking who is hot and splashing water. lala~ was very fun. reminds me of yoshiki and toshi. hahaha.

then went to help out the redeemtion counter. after that(i escaped the debrief), i went up to the hall and we just slacked there till YC done his chem test and they decided to go to airport for their video meeting. hmm... ages since i last went for a video meeting eh. lol. so just watched spiderman three and like listened to their meeting. because it isn't fun to be part of it :P.

then after the meeting ( that was eight) we went home. lala~
and i finished my pack of tao kae noi. LOL.

so here's some picture to spice up the post....

daniel's pika pika. i was trying to teach it to say hide =)

me with YC's 20D. it is bigger than my face. hahaha.

wasting water making TJ. can you see it? geneve can't.

say anything.

shimin at rome -.-

fries, the missing piece makes in incomplete.

look at how they spam cabbage.

zxzx. gotta go post hist forum le.

2007-06-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

i am dead beat.

shall post abt today tml.

without you. my hide.

shall i die?

2007-06-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

let me start the post with a joyous? crap. mr yeo owns the x japan on piano disc i was talking about :O *gasps* i was rather shocked. heh. x japan leh.

ok let go back to what i wanted to say all along.

IDMI groupings are released. my name appeared twice on the paper. too bad i din take a picture of it. and it appeared twice as "yap tien juen" oh whatever. and daniel's name din even appeared once -.- this is how screwed the school is. so marilyn ling asked me to choose which group i wanted to go.
i had two choices.

group three: daren,weeleng,joyce,dione,suqin
group five: sheryl,zhikang?,laiping,emily, and i duno who.

someone with some brains would choose group three. someone who is loyal to your friend would choose group five. sorry but i chose group three.

ok that's not the point -.- anyway the teacher settled this anyway. they sent me to group three. expect me dying in IDMI.

think that's the end? hah. i thought so too

LA project: emily,mengying,amanda.

fcuk. double death. let's just hope everything goes alright.... i have nothing to comment o.0 i am doing on shakespearean theater. ahh heck. good or bad, it is a day -.-

i shall think it this way: tml will be last day of official lessons till tuesday.
i need to take xiao yuan bi ji photos. rawr.

my amazing masterpiece for chinese calligraphy :D

voiceless screaming, inside my heart

holiday blues D:

2007-06-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

rawr. first day of school was WAYYY OFF. rawr. i was about to bang my head against wall le. sc meeting was bloody boring. i was like yawning away~. but i was so tired, so i didn't help in deco oops. sorry!

and i saw the cd. "X JAPAN on PIANO!!!!!!" it was the first time i handled and opened a XJAPAN DISC!!!! OMG. it was SEXY. but the disc wasn't inside. hmm.....

ok i should go sleep.

according to xpg, vtp 7 is out! shall go check out....

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIEN!"

i want the LP dvd back. rawr

hideto matsumoto singles @ hmv.

2007-06-24T22:52:00.000+08:00

i wanted to do homework today. but my mum dragged me to shopping. oh well. so i decided to go. i got my wallet to say. yes it is the one that bess and i both loved :D haha. i bet she's jealous (: never mind. she still can buy it if she wants. same wallet as me (: . then. i went hmv to check out hide singles!

hmm.. there is goes....

the first single i saw. like the cover art.. hide with spread beaver hurry go round. nice song.

hide's beauty and stupid. one of the nicest song from hide. (it takes about sex. YAY). hmm but the cover art sucks. D: rawr.

THE FAVOURITE ONE I LIKE. THE SONGS AND COVER ART.doubt'97 mixed LEMONed jelly mix <33

finally. remastered blue blood. 51.90. teh BOMB. OUCH!

then i walk so long so long so long then ate dinner and came home.
I AM GETTING A NEW MODEM AND ROUTER. GOD FASTER SPEED COME!

rawr. needa sleep. zxzx.

TJ PWNS!

2007-06-23T19:25:00.000+08:00

Create Yours @ NackVision

see i pwn you!

maximizing space in your hdd.

2007-06-23T11:18:00.000+08:00

left with miserable few gbs or space in your computer?
maximize your space to store more data.

here's what happen to me.
i was left with 7gb out of 60gb.
i wanted to defrag but they said that not enough hdd space to defrag.

so go internet explorer and delete all temporary internet files. i got 14 gb after that.
then, go C:\Documents and Settings\\Local Settings\Temp
delete all the files inside there except files create today. or rather the day of deletion.

after that i got 17gb. go defrag your hdd, leave it overnight. and tada. i got 22gb!

then you can use disk cleanup to further remove crap stuffs from your com! *after diskcleanup i got 31gb. that's how amazing it is.

i think that help. MSN me if you need any further explainaion

2007-06-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

go bess blog to see the sakae pics. i too lazy go post slowly. gee.

CLICK HERE!

enjoy your trip at bess blog.

high school never ends. oh oh oh oh...

Use Your Illusion I & Use Your Illusion II - live in tokyo

2007-06-22T13:04:00.000+08:00

I SAW MY BELOVED USE YOUR ILLUSION DVD THAT I HAVE BEEN LONGING. RAWR.

i saw it at tampines sembawang. it looks cool. i bet you guys want to have a look.

oh. and i went out with jacq,bess and tere to sakae@changi yesterday.
ultimate camwhore with spastism involved.
went to tm too.SAW THIS MYUK WALLET THAT IS WHITE AND LOVE <3
shall post all the pictures later.

zxzx.TJ

2007-06-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

YAY. submitted this skin! it was so long ago that i did this skin.

i would like to thank SHERYL! & JACQ! for helping me out on this skin.

so
CLICK!
CLICK!
CLICK!

the coding sucks, coz it ain't by me. lala:D

just look at the image! lots of effort put in kay?

zxzx.TJ

jealousy embellishes a page of epic,
desire is embracing a dream

2007-06-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

iTunes revamp.

added cover art for all songs.

new albums added: red jumpsuit.

skin coming up: don't cry over spilled milk.

JUST FUCK OFF WOULD YOU, KEEP ASKING ME DO HOMEWORK, CARE ABOUT YOUR FUCKING MATTERS LAR. I WILL MANAGE MY STUFFS MYSELF. BITCH

rawr. fucking pissed now.

zxzx. TJ

2007-06-18T21:06:00.001+08:00

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp,MediaPlayer, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you’re cool

Opening Credits:
when you gonna give it up to me - Sean Paul feat. keyshia cole /give up then the movie will start. haha
Waking up:
Tears - X Japan / i woke up with tears.

First Day:
Pull me under - dream theater/ wow. pulled under on first day

Falling In Love:
voiceless screaming - X Japan/ i could do nothing about it maybe?

Fight Song:
Rag Doll - Maroon 5 / fight with a rag doll!

Breaking up:
Say Anything - X Japan / Say anything, i would just break up.

Prom:
Figure.09 - Linkin Park / erm. i duno?

Life:
Friday Night - Click five / zxzx. i only get high on friday night.

Mental Breakdown:
Through the fire and flames - Dragonforce / how true, i am through that when breakdown. haha

Driving:
Rose of Pain - X Japan / lol. PAIN.

Flashback:
All the small things - blink 182/ HAHA. i remember all the small things

Getting Back Together:
Art of Life - X Japan / that's just the art of life

Wedding:
X - X Japan/ LOL!! it will be canceled? haha

Birth Of Child:
Flame(Psyence Faction Version) - hide /GONE IN THE FLAME. dear my sun! haha

Final Battle:
Scars - X Japan / it will end up in scars. how true.

Death Scene:
Break the darkness - X Japan / haha. how true! lLOLOL

End Credits:
Endless Rain - X Japan / it would be endless. ahaha/

credits to elfie. eh. mine makes lots of sense. hahaa

2007-06-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

congrats bren for her sotd!
we cheated din we? even my fieryangel93 account was used o.0
she is also the top of top 15! coolz!

i miss the time when i topped the top 15, it was a enjoyable experience

gahh, i think it is time to leave my skinning hiatus.
take note. i think i will be just supplying coding and will feature someone's image. haha.

i am looking forward to tomorrow, thursday and friday

run away from reality, i've been crying in my dream.

2007-06-16T23:07:00.001+08:00

with tribute

2007-06-16T13:43:00.000+08:00

wahh. tj is blogging w0rhx.

ok,
this post is very very simple.

thank you xiaoping for organizing the bs outing for us!
it was sure an enjoyable experience!

I love Xiaoping, Ebi, Rui Min, Tere, Brenda, Elfie, Jacqueline, Sylvia, Winnie, Hajar & Bessy for turning up and making today such a lovely day. taken from bessy, thanks! =/

of course the rainbow was love

fucking each other at the end of the rainbow?

2007-06-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

ouch. it has been ages since i last blog.
ow pain.
30 june. it is 9 june now. the last decent post was 22 june.
ow double pain. hahaha.

so i am back to at least post something

so i went to sc camp. had great fun there! we were busy trying to get the bucket up. and then we did some thumbprint and stuffs!
haha =D

then we went for dinner.
wanted pizza hut so we went suntec, in the end there was a long queue and the hostess herself was serving and taking order and we din manage to ask how long approx it would take. it is just like diner dash, you have to serve, clear dishes and he a hostess at the same time. haha so we decided to go pastamania!
it is cam-whoring time! it is also cheese spamming time! hahahaha. it was not bad. rather delicious. then we went to the food court to have dessert! then xingqi says he is not full yet and went to buy a plate of duck rice. then we went to buy our dessert.
ice kachang without the "liao". haha. then it was cheaper and ALOT ALOT of ice. hahahaa. then szu yee said. damn, i should called that too. and when we came back buying our dessert, xingqi amazing finished his duck rice.
then we had a re re mix of dessert and soup =D. we played give me tempo ready go then the loser had to drink it, they say it taste saltwater. LOL.
more camwhoring before going home.

Then comes ITem camp! we went to some insane 20++km macritche walk. made me went mad. then i and gary decided to sian at the back. we gave up at the last 5 km or so on the board walk and we decided to sit down at every "pokecenter" which is actually the benches. then we will hum the pokecenter tune! =D damn cute. then gary has his pokestick. old man summons old rod!
then zenn fell flat on the floor while me haoyi zenn were running to "daylight" haha. poor him. oh there were lots of monkeys.
then we had some bk for lunch before going to marina.
we had bowling!!! it was so duper fun! haha. ITem bowling is always so fun. YC from 12 for 10 throws to 144. imba. hahaha.

i broke record for first round at 100 before getting trashed. my dear captain jack sparrow

then i zenn gary yc went to subway to eat dinner before we played office scandal. it was so fun. haha. you're fired! busted! blackmail! demotion&promotion! haha. so fun. we had lots of joy. we played from 6+ to near 9+.
second day! we had flight sim! had lots lots lots lots of fun! flight sim with joystick so cool! haha. then we went for bbq!
took public transportation to bbq! from 6+-8+ the fire din start. then we ate till 10. before coming home.

yw yawn. okie that shall be enough. i am so tired.

wait for my new update!

i know what's on with you all,
but why is your reaction like that?

2007-05-30T12:54:00.000+08:00

Trail of Broken Hearts - Dragonforce
Here we are, far beyond the distant sky
I've seen all the world and how the story will beat over
Through the snow and tainted mountains we have climbed
Now we have found the light that guides us over
Through the falling rain we've travelled far and wide
And through the blackest of these stars above shining bright

Through the sun and winter rain will fall
All our lives we all were waiting for a sign to call
We're walking hand in hand in dreams of endless time
How do we know when we will leave this life behind?

Stare at life through eyes of mine
The hate, the fear and the pain
There's a feeling held deep inside
When life you live is in vain
(Life you live is in vain)

Fly away down the lonely roads of yesterday
We close our eyes to see the light of brighter days
And all alone we'll be where time can never heal
With the trail of broken hearts flying free

Once again we walk this lonely road
There are times that we were wading through the rain and cold
We're lost in memories of what we left behind
Relive the dreams, the endless screams of pain inside

Lives are filled with emptiness
The fear returns once again
Searching endlessly, now we will see
Drown your mind in the pain
(Drown your mind in the pain)

Fly away down the lonely roads of yesterday
We close our eyes to see the light of brighter days
And all alone we'll be where time can never heal
With the trail of broken hearts flying free

The last temptation will be all that's left for me
When I see those tears you cry
When I hear those lies you lie
When I feel all creation now falling down on me
Is this the reason to be?

Solos : Sam/Herman/Sam

Fly away down the lonely roads of yesterday
We close our eyes to see the light of brighter days
And all alone we'll be where time can never heal
With the trail of broken hearts flying free...
The trail of broken hearts flying free

when I see those tears you cry,
when I hear those lies you lie

2007-05-29T14:21:00.000+08:00

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.

Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

2007-05-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

When You're Gone Lyrics
Artist(Band):Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
and the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for eachother
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah
all I ever wanted was for you
To know everything I do i give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel here you with me Yea...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

I miss you.

2007-05-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

and the first half of the day was SIAN.
pe was like SIAN. i did nothing.
i prefer playing on sand :D

second half of the day was fun (:

at first i thought iris said eating with the guys and stuff or something like that. then in end only got peishan,iris,michelle and me. so it was like raining? and only iris got umbrella. so in the end they had the umbrella and i walked under the rain(: (quotes from endless rain:"i am walking in the rain") then we went to eat lunch. then iris asked me to hold the chicken rice then i had bad balance and all the sauce spilled=/ all over on the chair on the table everywhere. then iris was like tsk-ing me. then we settled down for lunch. then first call from gillian. asking if we shld cancel challenge day coz too little participants. Then i say ok. So, ok first call. then joyc called me coz of inhuman and record day. then i answered(i still have half a plate of rice), then ok happily ate finish that plate of chicken rice. then i think coz michelle say the soup not bad, then we started to mix the chicken meat sauce, the sweet sauce and the chilli together. i tell you, it is IMBA. the taste is like uhm. weird. haha. then we walked back, on the way back, yuhding called me(like wth?). then he asked me abt challenge day(ONCE AGAIN). i was like so pissed luh. then peishan said that she was walking in a bimbotic way coz michelle held the umbrella very low and that peishan and to like lower herself(LOL!). then we went back to the school. then on the way i started to "throw" all the water on iris umbrella on iris. then i duno why the whole thing overturn. so i went to "collect" water and splashed at iris! then made her wet, michelle and peishan got wet too. then when i went back to class, everyone was like asking what happened to my hair. zzz. coz it was damn bloody wet. settled some stuffs and came back. michelle and iris hogging o2jam on my com. peishan doing assignment. then i duno when did emily came in. so soon after michelle went back home. so we continue playing. then peishan went for cca. then continue play lor. then iris went for psltc meeting. then left me and emily there. then we were like staring into space. then iris came back and we play play play. then iris said were waiting for peishan. then in the end she left alr. damn zzz lar. then we lefft lor. then we had ICE-CREAM (: . we were like saying,if the ice-cream man was there. then emily said she cant find her wallet so she chionged back to class. but then cant find it, in the end it was in her pencil box. (damn zzz right) then we bought macademia. then we ate till have damn lots of diffculty. then in the end left a little bit then emily asked me to stuff into my mouth, in the end YUCK! i made a mess out of it and my mouth ached i duno what and that my mouth cant chew till the ice cream melted. gahh. then iris and emily left at tiong bahru and outram park respectively and i was alone back home D:. zzz...

and they were talking about rachel, werent they?

how i wish that everything was unreal,
and that everything could restart.
i would be better,
i promise.

2007-05-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

I AM SO EXCITED OVER THIS.
CHANCED UPON WIKI.

click HERE!!!

X JAPAN NEW VIDEOGRAPHY RELEASED
OMG OMG OMG. i am so getting it.

shiroi yoru and aoi yoru. OMGGG.

Price: 20000yen (US$ 163.56/ 21000yen Tax incl.)

irst ever DVD release of footage from X-Japan's "Aoi Yoru Shiroi Yoru" concert originally recorded December 30 and 31, 1994. Features four DVDs of footage, one bonus disc, and bonus CD. Bonus DVD includes over 50 minutes of unreleased behind-the-scenes video, with bonus CD containing a recreation of the demo tape originally distributed at the concert titled "Longing - Fumikireta melody."

I AM GETTING IT. I DUN GIVE A BLOODY DAMN :D

2007-05-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

my mood is currently very bad.
you now that as i am listening only two songs.
"psychommunity piano and good bye piano"
both are just so touching as they are played by yoshiki for hide. *weeps*
so my screwed sideburn was cut by that toot.
thks

i dont give a damn about everything now.

fuck the projects.
fuck the camps.
fuck NJRC.

just fuck my life.

2007-05-13T00:03:00.001+08:00

was really tired yesterday.. lets have some posting about level camp.

day one -at the beginning
we reached school to receive my class tee and my bond tee. just snugly stuff them into my bag. :D very soon we assembled in our groups after bidding farewell with my classes. and the PA was so damn cool. it was only we three years 2 and mr chia doing it :D. then whoever shouted the command was so soft that i cant hear it and mr yeo was jumping at the back to ask me(who was standing at e rails) to play, immediately signaled to kimberly. haha. lucky we played in time. then i went to GO to slack. then ms yeo said briefing in parade sq. in the end also dun have. so we kept the stuff in GO before going to gym. reaching there, we had to split into groups. i din know anyone there. only know zhenghui(dun talk often),nicholas,byrn,justin(dun talk to too), zhiting(dun talk too often), alissa(do i ever talk to her),huixiang&yishao(eh chio bu leh, sure must know de) haha.the rest were STRANGERS. then we took the bus to marina country club. damn funny, coz miss wee was seating infront of me and byrn then byrn duno dare say vulgarities and then wtf=what's that for. haha. we were happily snacking wang wang.
reaching there, byrn had this deal that he helped me carry my bag and i carried in slingbag(i seriously need to thank him for that)
THANKS BYRN LOADS AND LOADS, I LOVE YOU :D.
while waiting for the jetty,we quickly settled down for icebreakers. at first we alr labeled everyone's name in the booklet by order. then faizal go shuffle. then i keep need to ask byrn for the names( i dun even know everyone's name till now ).then we went to vending to buy snacks. i went to buy wasabi seaweed and bryn bought ovalteenies. haha. then mr lim and ms yeo saw us buying then they two say must share with them. then mr lim ask when i eating it, then i say maybe on the ferry. then he said "wahh so smart, then i cannot kup from you alr" heh. putting it into byrn sling, we joined back the group.we played blow wind blow. blow those that wants a job(sorry thats sounds horny :D) then we played the neighbours game. then play 7-up too. then took the ferry to ubin(the journey of being ubin boy starts). left our bag at the the white tentage before joining grp 11 at the banana(a nickname i and byrn gave for the cavanna-issit like that spell?). then we keep repeating after the instructor. after that we had our lunch before building the tent. after building the tent we had some stuffs i think is just teaching of more and more cheers( i cant actually remember.) then had our dinner. then went to bathe before going to the conference room for some sing-a-long session. went thru the camp songs and cheers and then sang zhizhu. they also taught us the campfire cheer. the what C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E(SPACE-haha)SONG. then we had some what prep for campfire now. the 2C girl actly went to dance infront for a choc(forgt what choc). cheap. oops. then slept in the tent. spammed insect repellent. then some repellent into my mouth, damn bitter, yuk. then janson kept snoring and snoring during the sleeep. then byrn and me kept waking up. so pissed till we went for a walk -to be caught by instructors and we must go back tent. haiz, tio scolding.ook thats for day 1.

day two -the rainy day
it was gloomy day. we had our ubin explorer for the first thing. quite boring. we din make to the jetty but we did go to the quarry! :D beautiful scene i will say. miss christine tan took some pics for us too! the pictures are like WOW. amazing. then we went to this hut because we have no more time. a rather cool place i say. then we walked back to the resort. second item was the olympics. we did the place shoe messed up and putting shoe in barrel;. after that it just rained and rained, so we just went back to the white tentage and stone in space. nothing significant happened. then we did a little low ropes before it rained again and we had to slack till it was dinner time. and oh yar, we were doing a mini trust fall. then they pushed me to yishao. i was like wtfff and i immediately gained balance(no way i am letting her touch me -yuk) then we went for night walk. rather fun, the way there was a little scary but it was overall ok. it was like ultimate pitchdark and faizal refused to let us on our torchlight unless emergency. then we went back to tentage to sleep. slept and kuanliang tent, was a peaceful sleep and slept all the way to the morning except for once where i woke up and went out with kuanliang(who also woke up). then we just woke up in time heh :D

day three -the climax
day three, we went to do e rafting first. teamtanics they call it, naming after the sunk ship,so it is meant to sink. lucky our group got some UG people, so it was ok. i din do a single knot though, i sucked it in. and surprising spongebob know how to do it. o.0. then we managed to win the challenged lar, then all the trainers jumped into the water. so funny. haha. we forced faizal to jump into the water. hahahaha. then we had lunch before doing rock wall. it was rather fun but then my hand was injured so din do much. then mr lim climbed the rock wall. faizal had this bet that if mr lim fail, we each do 30 pumping, then if mr lim succed he do 100. apparently mr lim(who was wearing my shoe) failed lar. then we did it lor. the gravel floor damn pain can? how to do. so i and byrn just cheat all the way lor. hahaha. but it was so fun. high elements was so lame. i din go anything except sun tanning(which i din grow any tanner) and then i just stone there, talked to xintian and spongebob. then we got to our chalet :D. at first b4 campfire, we din know there were cockroachers so we were rather happy and on-ed the aircon. then we went for the campfire. was so damn fun. BURN BURN BURN. the campfire was rather big which dwindled to a small fire soon after, then the mass dance was cool, zhizhu was touching too. :D. our performance was so damn lame can? as we walk to the left, to the right, as we walk walk walk all night, with a heel, and a toe, and a half turn around, with a heel and a toe and a new friend found. haha. had fun there lar. titititititi. BOOM DYNAMITE..titititi.. BOOM and you die :D. had ICECREAM/. haha it was not bad :D. then went back to the chalet after being rather hi(notice rather as i wasnt really as high as that time orientation.) then we went back to the chalet then saw cockroaches in the toilet. no one can kill it (oh yar, we were sleeping with grp 21 -sean's grp) then it disappeared so sean went to bathe, then in the end it appeared during his bathe. hahahah. then i and byrn decided to go "mate" in the room, then i was commenting why there were so many dead cockroaches, then in the end there were TWO cockroaches mating, WTF? then i and byrn screamed and ran out of the room. we opened the door to the staircase and scream into it before closing it. haha. then sean we all go to kuanliang room to see austin power,to avoid nick. then we were there to see austin power. walao damn funny can? his chest hair damn fake. hahhaa. the girls were sexy though :D. then went back to own room with daren to sleep(we hecked the cockroaches). AND BYRN WITH DAREN DIN BATHE. WTH. i went to kuanliang room to bathe. haha! then we were damn bloody cold when we woke up. all of us were shivering like mad. hahaha! then the cockroaches disappeared. lol. duno where they go.

DAY 4 -seperation
so we went to have our breakfast and pack up before leaving. exchanged number and email with zero members. haha! then we got our pictures. :D. had a good talk on the bus. tan tian shuo di. we talked alot of things. was rather emo on the way. they were saying of organising a outing. oh well, i may go after all :D. i love zero. then met huien and waited for a while before we left and huien was saying about her experience in the pathetic ubin! haha!

thats the end of my recount :D. and oh yar. zero has a blog!
http://twozero07.blogspot.com/. i will recode the skin with a pic soon :D. i have the mood to skin again. YAY.

okok.. enough of crap. my hand is hurting, my final statement: i love zero. love you guys. you sure made my day and my year. will remember you guys :D. the bonding and everything, remains etched on my mind. forever love <3.

离别的心永远那么痛苦，
但人们却失去后在懂得珍惜，
人就是这样，不懂得知足

2007-05-12T11:52:00.000+08:00

i am doubting my counter. haha! 10k hits alr. i think coz alot of blogs are sharing the same counter. hahaha...

changed my skin. fully coded from scratch by me. from the tutorial from irene. :D
if you think that i kupped ur coding, feel free to contact me. thank you.

will blog later.. gotta go for breakfast,or rather lunch for this time.

2007-05-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

and i am finally back from ubin. urgh.

din bring phone. so no picture... the view was so damn nice. haha
miss christine tan did helped us take some pics at e quarry. she say maybe she upload to asknlearn. hahaha. she damn funny :D.

was rather an eye opener like the night walk. i din walk at so late at the midst of a forest before. it was imba.

both tent i slept in BROKE. the resort has cockroaches. bad luck eh.

made a significant amount of friends in the group.

and i and byrn both agree spongebob damn cute haha. i think her name is jiahui or something like that. i cant remember her name. oh sadded. :D

zhiting says she wants a outing. wow. i dun mind actly. lets see how it goes. and she wants a blog. but our group dun seem very bonded. i duno. i do agree that i am bias to some members, haiz, nvm me.

it ended, even before i realized it started

i am damn screwed up. i am feeling being a loser. maybe i am.

and not everything has a second chance.

after everything was over,
was it reality or a illusion?
i'm not sure

2007-05-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

anyway. i did the idmi quiz. lets look at e score.

i have zero musical. i should stop the thought of learning guitar. haha! :D

no, i am not looking forward to it,
all it will bring it more hurts and scars

and no not literally.

blue blood wine, cheers

2007-05-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

i got a C for maths without counting my assignments

loser. he doesnt know how to compute my results.
and i got a C without assignments. with assignments. issit possible only to get a A?

c'mon i think it is A+. after seeing the marks he said, you should get a A?
SHOULD?! YOU DIN EVEN SEE THE MAIN MARKS YOU SAID SHOULD?! SCREW OFF. ultimate loser.

almost the whole class hates you now btw
you aint the good old teacher i knew in year 1.

haha. i hate all my teachers now. it is no wonder my grades are dropping drastically.
i think i got 2.93 . wtffffff

2007-05-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

wtf.. blogger takes long to load the new post page....
i have only till the end of say anything to write this post and 2 mins of the songs have past.. ahh wtf.

anyway... my camp grouping is GROUP 19.

Bryn 2A
Hui Xiang 2A
Alissa 2B
Tee Jay 2B
Yishao 2C *wtf*
Jia Ding 2D
Zhi Ting 2D
Zheng Hui 2E
Lee Ying 2E
Jing Ting 2F
Wen Ting 2G
Nicholas 2G
Yi Hui 2I
Jillian 2I
Jia Hui 2J
Joey 2K
Heng Guang 2L

thats my group. LOL. 6 guys i suppose.

i took your nicholas LOL.

ahh screw my group. yishao and huixiang. wahh. screw. and erm. i gonna faint within the group. LOL

my science and geog common did fairly well so far... lets hopyoe that my maths tests did as well :D.

but screw my projects. i am forever borderline passing them making me fail my subjects one by one. what the f....

and item tml! micromouse. haha. i want to learn.

ahh. 离别的心永远那么重. Say anything, you leave me out of my eyes.

bluetooth connection error 404.

everything was history. data erased.

2007-05-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

and i seriously duno what to type. all the sadness is there. but none can be formed and written in words. lets just hope that paradise is good and he is doing fine.

2007-05-01T17:12:00.000+08:00

and i havent been in a rather good mood the past few days. i dont know whats up with me. perhaps chain of thoughts just suddenly affected me. i am not really very sure. i suddenly just feel like listening tears and say anything. somehow the song that i feel like listening just reflect my mood. i have been listening say anything and tears and amethyst and good bye [piano] and without you. they just somehow gives a impactful thought on me. it just sound good at this moment.llol.

i thought that after all my common test i would happy chirpy and carefree as it is just slacking all the way. but somehow subconsciously i just ahh. urgh.

tomorrow is just such a meaningful and impactful day. i wont know how i would react to it.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
say anything to my lying heart
If I can't go back to where I have been, I'll live only in dreams,
Getting wet in the endless rain.
Colour my running tears within my daydreams.
You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.
Say anything, you leave me out of my eyes.
You say anything, all I can hear is a voice from within my dream.
Say Anything, you can dry my every tear.

2007-04-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

and i am seriously having no mood to post now. i am having a bad giddy spell and that my mum is shooing me to sleep. ahh. heck. let me type this out first.

it has been 9 years. how do you do?

2007-04-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

posting at near midnight. surely not an enjoyable thing to do. but my life only allows that. at least i managed to post.

and the steroids which are supposed to make my energetic just made me more sadded and led me into yet another despair. emo as what you guys call it. i seriously hope that everything would go right.

it is maths test within less than 12 hrs so wish me luck pple, i better ace in this test :D. who asked me who screwed up my indices.

erm. life has been bad so far. the badminton match was boringgg. i was slacking all the way playing handphone games and smsing. haha. i mean what else is there to do. as if we would cheer like that. LOL. anyway, lets do a countdown.

22 more SCHOOL days to school holidays
thats less than a mth. LOL.
for the past mth we have been slacking every friday. haah. so from now to june hols the only breaks are this friday and labour day. so go out with your friends this two days. :D actually after this week quite slack alr. coz no more test. so just go sch study, come back do homework. play awhile then go sleep. next day cycle repeats. then maybe play soccer or do racer after school. there wont be need for mugging and soon i will get back my god-damned report card that would write a C for chinese and history and i have a feeling i gna get 2.5 for gpa. haha. i am screwing up my studies.

ok.. i gonna fail my maths test if i still dun go sleep. ahhaha. at least i wont get negative marks. hahahaha.

end of post : 11:55pm

2007-04-21T17:54:00.000+08:00

and and and, my computer toolbar, my adobe and my table is in a big big big mess.
i have three files beside my laptop. my calculator, worksheets, pencil case and stationary scattered everywhere. my computer toolbar is with notepad, three convos, one msn msgr, one adobe, one iTunes, three windows explorer. my adobe is open with all the hide pictures. everything seems so screwed. my life is so screwed up. to make it worse, i am having a major allergy and i have to eat oral steroid. i bet there will be major side effects. but who cares. i am at the verge of destruction. it wont make any difference.

and i cant live up to your expectations,
i am scared that all i give you is disappointment.
at this point i seriously cant make a decision,
whether to give up or continue to walk on.
~~i walk beside you, wherever you are,whatever it takes, no matter how far~~ i dont see anyone walking beside me. i am there just left to die. and please, being a leader, what the heck.i cant even lead myself, lest saying leading others much has happened, i am questioning my heart now" where do i belong?" seriously i am getting no where now except failing my chinese and LA and not being able to complete my tq website. i feel so screwed now.
i am sorry guys. i din manage to make you all feel proud of me.again

AND YOU GOD-DAMNED LOSER. just FCUK off will you. you are just being t3H irritant and nothing else. YOUR thinking doesnt equates MY thinking. GET A LIFE and STOP making decision for me. so like to care about other people, CARE ABOUT YOURSELF FIRST.

being a njrc leader? being yr 3&4 challenge day IC? being a SC? i doubting myself now.
i fail to deliver

2007-04-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

and i am seriously utterly worn out.

the stressed built up it totally insane.
the screwed up FUCKING LC made me IC for record day IC. WTF. they think i am nt stressed enough. DAMN IT. i am washing my hand off.

SOCCER WAS FUN. <3 i no mood to post alr. post next day bahh :D

2007-04-17T21:32:00.000+08:00

when the world of mine died.

lyrics.OF.the.DAY

Voice of faith, now I'm starting to realize,
now my eyes can see,
I have gone so far.
I'm feeling breath of life.
And I'm looking for love to reach
someone I want to touch deep inside.
Light shines on my sight of doubt
don't be afraid,
move forward one step,
willing mind is what I have found at last.

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.
Voiceless screaming, calling to me, inside of my heart,
knocking on my souls door.
I believe in myself and trust what I do.
Voiceless Screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knockin' on my souls door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven.

2007-04-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

and i feel like posting today so i shall post.

i am in love with my 2 mega pixel camera at the back of my phone equipped with flash and auto focus. it may not be as good as my digi cam. but heck i can like take picture so conveniently? whip out my phone and tada! there it is to shoot down different moments of my life :D
麻雀虽小，五脏俱全。 yea what a good description for my handphone camera. i would of cause like a cybershot phone. i sometimes doubt why people like huimin or seeting buy a cybershot and dun utilize their functions. damn. cybershot aint just a name for you to put there and say "see? i have a cybershot phone ._." damn. USE IT. DO WONDERS WITH IT. YOU CAN GET PICTURES WITH A CYBERSHOT PHONE. darn. people may not get wonders with slr. mind you. it is how you USE ur phone. YOUR setting. even a vga can take good pics if used properly.

so some pictures that i took so far and i am rather happy with them.
meaning the shades of tones and stuff.
note: they are taken using my 2 mp cam.some random pic from van hse
see the effect of how the van is sharp yet the surrounding is blur? also used the rule of thirds
some picture showing the spectrum

how the spine is the main character the focus and the drift. :D

and I WANT MORE ICE-CREAM.

i splurged six bucks on food. gawd

2007-04-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

and and and. i have lots lots lots to post!
i shall post before i go do my tuition work.
ok. first. i din post yesterday coz i was really really tired.
i thought it was 11 when it was only 9.
i slept on the mrt from boonlay to city hall.
i slept before my laptop yesterday. this shows how tired i am.

lets talk about thursday.

setting: in the science lab after the prey predator game.
characters: me, sean, daren, mrs teng.
props: three handphone - a w810i, W700i, K750 , one laptop, three pencil cases: one myuk X pencil case, one converse, one billabong. worksheets and mrs teng laptop, worksheet, thermometer.
script:
Scene 1 Act 1:
(me sean and daren were damn sian of the lesson)
daren: lets all whip out our handphone and play game
me and sean: wahahaha. sure! lesson is so boring. yawn..
so we played.
and then mrs teng discovered us. in a rush. i stuffed in on my chair. and it dropped on the floor when mrs teng was approaching.
so i kicked it to a corner and use my leg to block it.
she asked us to stay back after class. went she walked back i dived for my hp ( i pity it)

Scene 1 Act 2..
mrs teng came and talked to us. i am too lazy to type. shall copy from the convo

then after that she write on the whiteboard stuff
i dived for my handphone(the whole class saw that)
then after the class.
she said
"what were you doing"
i said i tying shoelace
then.
she say whats the sound dropping
i said i dropped my correction tape
haha.
lol wth.
then she started saying.
i am doubting your attitude towards science
then she say that what.
lol
we hand in shobbly assignments, i close one eye.
we hand in late, she close one eye
we that timr talk in bloodbank tiio scolding by mr travel(some fucking new teacher?) , she close one eye
i was like FUCK, how many eyes she have
then after that is the best joke
...
from now on it will be direct speech to make it more realistic
t for teacher
u for us
t- so why you all study science for
sean - to get an A
t - how you all going to get A
me - study our notes
t - how to study ur notes
daren - by revising those notes that we took down
t - how are you going to score an A if u nvr listen in class?
u - speechless

yup end of story!

yesterday:
cheered to sian.
decided to hold the speaker.
too hot alr.
went to 2b to hide instead.
hahahahaha.
went out with IT'em.
had great argument whether to eat at macs.. settled at macs in the end.
then we took the train to marina square. on the train we all slept xcept YC coz he was standing.
when we reached there we went to bowl.
huimin won. 102 pts i think.
yenchen chased after me coz of a strike. - 74 pts
i am third - 70 pts
then haoyi bblah blah blhah.
yc was damn imba. he first 5 pairs all zero. in the end got 54 pts. he first throw still threw to two lanes away. IMBA.
after that we went to sakae.
eat eat eat was what we did. 4 fried tofu. 4 fired tofu.
and the rice smells like spray paint.
so we complained. all of them no courage.
i raised my hand. then olivia and me did all the taking. zzz.
after that we ate ate ate and then we paid.
and oh yes. . there is always the what 10% discount and the vinegar juice thing on the conveyor belt.. then we put them on the sushi plates and see how it enters the kitchen. haha, it was damn funny. the vinegar juice past. but the the 10% thing toppled but it somehow managed to stand back upright again. so lucky. then we were all laughing. damn it, i nearly puked of laughing. hahahahaha. it was damn funny. the mission imposssible. wahahahhaha.then we went to carrefour to walk around because we scared we have heartburn(that reminds me of YC carton of milk). then huimin say she wants to go to the technology section at the 2nd level. so she went up with yc and st while me, yenchen and olivia stayed to look at ice-cream. the search for child hood XD. then we saw the ice-cream. was so tempting. then i typed a sms under 24.7 degree. my hands were like numb till so difficult to type. but the feelings was so cool. then i and olivia went to rub the hand on the glass. so it was cold and has static. then we wham! go put on yenchen hand. she screamed. then i go put on her face. i bet it froze her man. wahahahaha. then we saw the scan thing. so we keep scanning items. so fun! then we sat on the travelator. haahah. too lazy to post pics. lala~.
then we went home. in citylink, somehow yc somehow got static. then he keep shocking pple. so i and olivia keep running around citylink to avoid yc the static man. haha. then it somehow managed to discharge it. hahaa. and tada! i came home! XD
end of post. finally. okie shall go do work le...

so the pics arrive.

the bowling score. h is haoyi, g is guppy, s is shimin, h is huimin, b is yen chen, and wp stands for weird pple which is me!

half way through sakae

through the mirror reflection. did that last time too

after the battle. so many cold noodles chawanmushi, miso soup and plates
and look at this. the ice cream so cute! and there is this ice which was melting and was put into the freezer. so the ice with some like water is stuck to the cover. so cool!

2007-04-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

woah. it has been ages since i last posted. much has happened.

so i changed to this temporary blogskin. will change it soon (:
i seriously forgot what happened yesterday that i wanted to blog. ahh. memory lapse again.

so lets talk about today (:

we were partying in LT3! sean they all were singing to the microphone and blasting songs through microphone. and there i was playing with the piano. lala~ then only i know how to do the speakers. (damm. i learnt that last yr from gary. yes. beloved gary)
then duno why fawn glad they all came. then the whole 2b came. o.0 then in the end we left after like half an hour. but it was damm fun lar. muahahaha. then i keep saboing them..
then we took the volleyball and went to play soccer. wahaha. we played happily and it rained suddenly. so we went to the CC to have a drink. next thing it POURED. yes it POURED, it poured TJ AND TJ. I SAW LEMONADE OKAY?!

so in the end. boshi and kuanliang had an umbrella( i took it out this morning thinking that i always nvr use it. damn.). then kuanliang lent his umbrella to fawn and glad. so in the end. WE CHIONGED. then daren still take the dumb chair and run. so the next thing we know. we are wet, drenched and our clothes near transparent. and i must thank sean and fawn who helped me take me laopo and kept it dry. however, when i reached kallang it was still raining so i used my laopo to cover my head. i still feel very guilty till now DD: .

and yea. i finally changed my msn nick after so long. ahaha.

too late too late. everything is gone alr.
too late too late. game over.
too late too late maybe there is a second chance.

2007-04-08T17:10:00.000+08:00

OMG. toshi look so ewwww now. he and his damm fucked up cult. fuck that masaya.anyway. for the fireworks i am doing on X JAPAN (:(no surprise eh). it spans over 11 pages. i shall upload them so that you all can see (:
lala. and there they are. a little messy though D;

★TIANJUEN. says:
LOL.
EWW
toshi looks
ugly.
• joyc, hide. says:
TOLD YPOU

★TIANJUEN. says:
LOL
i told you lor
haha.
• joyc, hide. says:

★TIANJUEN. says:

i still prefer the old toshi
haha
he and his bloody cult made him uglier
★TIANJUEN. sends:

★TIANJUEN. says:
LOL
this picture so cute

Transfer of "xjapan41.jpg" is complete.

★TIANJUEN. says:
all of them do matrix
only hide turn around.
• joyc, hide. says:
lol yeah
★TIANJUEN. says:
hide so extra
so cool lar
• joyc, hide. says:

★TIANJUEN. says:
if all of them do matrix
then yoshiki jumps down
ok then yoshiki dies.
• joyc, hide. says:
.
★TIANJUEN. says:
HAHA.
lol. endless rain
• joyc, hide. says:
.
★TIANJUEN. says:
endless rain is one of the nicest cover.
• joyc, hide. says:
sure
★TIANJUEN. says:
lol.
which is the ugliest one.
hmm...
orgasm
HAHA
• joyc, hide. says:
lololol

2007-04-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

no more sva, rr all the way

SUPPORT RR. whoo~ finally there is a full RR. screw the NJRC.
and i suppose most pple would do RR.
since SVA is a hard process you know?

i really hope we can get into presentation finals.
zenn created this legacy. i hope that i can continue it.
i wont forget the njrc period.
tough yet somehow enjoyable.
armada,the legendary group..

so enough of reminiscing.

i am interested in taking up guitar (:

2007-04-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

oh and did i tell you that livejournal is a real good place to blog? nope! i am not hinting anything XD

and i want to go for dragonforce live. i want it!!! anybody to sponsor me a ticket? i dun mind going. (though the ticket is rather cheap alr.) hah XD

oh. lemme say a few stuff abt x japan songs. lemme have a detailed analysis since i am rather free

my favourite album: jealousy. they have the most versatile songs ever.

1 Es Dur no Piano Sen 1:50 Yoshiki
2 Silent Jealousy 7:15 Yoshiki
3 Miscast 5:12 Hide
4 Desperate Angel 5:48 Taiji / Toshi
5 White Wind From Mr. Martin ~Pata's Nap~ 0:54 Pata / ---
6 Voiceless Screaming 6:11 Taiji / Toshi
7 Stab Me In the Back 3:54 Yoshiki / Hitomi Shiratori
8 Love Replica 4:33 Hide
9 Joker 5:12 Hide
10 Say Anything 8:40 Yoshiki

it contains some of X best tracks. mainly: say anything, joker, love replica,silent jealousy, voiceless screaming.

i think it is the album with the most hide composed song too. it is so imba. hha. and it is still named X. haha.

second fav album!:

1 "Prologue (~ World Anthem)" 2:38 Frank Marino / Yoshiki
2 "Blue Blood" 5:03 Yoshiki
3 "Week End" 6:02 Yoshiki
4 "Easy Fight Rambling" 4:43 X Japan / Toshi & Hitomi Shiratori
5 "X" 6:00 X Japan
6 "Endless Rain" 6:30 Yoshiki
7 "Kurenai" (紅,"Kurenai") 6:09 Yoshiki
8 "XClamation" 3:52 X Japan / ---
9 "Orgasm" (オルガスム) 2:42 Yoshiki / Hitomi Shiratori
10 "Celebration" 4:51 Hide
11 "Rose of Pain" 11:47 Yoshiki
12 "Unfinished" 4:24 Yoshiki

soo.. this is of cause BLUE BLOOD! it has X JAPAN most famous songs.
including: kurenai, endless rain, orgasm, blue blood, week end.
it of coz has one of the best ballad: unfinished and the unique tone of celebration.

for the rest i shall not go into detail.

but the following is:

dahlia,
art of life,
then Vanishing Vision.....

that enough of crap. i shall blog later XD

2007-04-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

oh fuck. things are really getting out of hand the more i think about it.

~~this blog is closed. i wont be posting, till everything gets better and i get better.~~

i have a longing for your memory

[edit]
endless rain, rocket dive, ever free, dahlia, scars, in motion made me happy again.
and of coz i must thks my HUIEN CS3 whose use worked again. and sheryl haha. she sorta cheered me up too!
of coz i must thks the photo i took last time. looking at it
made me really knew whr my photography went.
i missed the last time i grasped a slr. the feeling was so.. GREAT!
i want a eos 350d kit. 50% as my bdae pressie? hahah.
i will <3 you guys if u ever do that. hahahah.

anyway. huien and sheryl really made my day.

joke frm huien

%往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: it's so WHOOOO~! : D
(11:12 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: LOL
my sexy sister!
(11:12 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: LOL
how old arh
(11:12 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: 18 going to 19
(11:12 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: sexy O.O have designs on her ah !!!
MWAHAHAHAHHAS - -"
(11:12 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: lol
o.0
(11:12 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: -.-
(11:13 PM) %往往两个人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明 has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:13 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: lol
(11:13 PM) %往往两个人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明 has changed his/her status to Online
(11:13 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: ;D huien is biantai
(11:14 PM) %往往两个人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明 has changed his/her status to Idle
(11:15 PM) %往往两个人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明 has changed his/her status to Online
(11:15 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: yar lor
(11:15 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: =.- you were supposed to say no
how anti climaax
(11:15 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: LOl
ok
huien nt biantai
(11:15 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: because tj is always more biantai: D
(11:15 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: lol
OK...
(11:16 PM) %往往两个
人多亲密，是透过伤害来证明: - -"

happy reading:

(10:34 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: i have a sexy sister
hahaha
(10:34 PM) ★SHER
YL.: yeah
and i got a sexy gay brother
(10:34 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: sexy gay guy = hide
ur bro nt as chio as hide
so change another term
hahahah
(10:35 PM) ★SHER
YL.: fine.
sexy metrosexual brother then
can
(10:36 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: metrosexual
zzz
(10:37 PM) ★SHER
YL.: hahaha
yeah
let me tell you why i say he's such a girl
(10:37 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: meaning?
(10:37 PM) ★SHER
YL.: he spends 20mins doing his hair while i take 2 mins
(10:37 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: cheyyz
(10:37 PM) ★SHER
YL.: why he's more of a girl than me
(10:37 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: i bet hide takes like half an hr styling his hair
(10:37 PM) ★SHER
YL.: he skips his meals to be like thin
-.-
(10:37 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: lol. i do that too
so dun insult me.
(10:37 PM) ★SHER
YL.: he makes me buy clips for his hair
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: LOL
CLIPS FOR WHAT
i just buy nike hairbands
(10:38 PM) ★SHER
YL.: he carries those kind of adidas SUPER GIRLY bags
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: lol tote bags?
(10:38 PM) ★SHER
YL.: yeah
but dam girl lke
:/
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: for me is slingbag
(10:38 PM) ★SHER
YL.: err
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: haha
(10:38 PM) ★SHER
YL.: he speaks like a gir;
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: i am partial gay
(10:38 PM) ★SHER
YL.: *girl
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: LOL
(10:38 PM) ★SHER
YL.: walks like a girl
looks like a girl
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: i dun do i?
looks like a girl!
(10:38 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: very interested
hahaha
walks like a girl
i walk like a gay
(10:39 PM) ★SHER
YL.: gay=hide didn';t u jus say tt?
(10:39 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: LOL
then i walk like hide lor
(10:39 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: teejay and hide, both are just as gay
nvr hear before meh
shld be
(10:40 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: hide and teejay*
(10:45 PM) ★SHER
YL.: -.----------
don't want to talk to you alr
change subj
(10:45 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: throws a dice
number 7!
whats the topic on the shelf
(10:45 PM) ★TIAN
JUEN.: oh no! there is only to number six
how???

i am rather lame now ((:
the clouds dispersed.
the sun is appearing..
when is the next thunderstorm?

i tell you who i talk to when i normally online
in the means when i talk to almost everyday.

sheryl,huien,madeleine,joyc,glad(sometimes).

2007-04-06T15:57:00.000+08:00

woah. 200th post alr. so fast. haha :D

while waiting for the curse fucked up asknlearn to load. i shall blog!

went to shao mu today. while waiting for relatives, i and my sister took the picture. it was using her 5300. haha.
apparently i was trying to act like those mangas! (:

it was damm sian. so i played nfs carbon and medieval to kill boredom.
so fast when reached home three le.

and i rmb that we got 17 for science experiement. ron and van got 20 only. haa. it nt bad alr (:

after all it is done within one night. haha.

daniel called me if i wanted to play soccer. they say 5 onwards. haha. i duno lar.
it looks like i am nt going. aha. better revise (: .

nothing could be hurt me further. i have been hurt so many times by you.

lyrics.OF.the.DAY

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

2007-04-05T20:07:00.000+08:00

okie. i shall post before i go revise on my Green Revolution cause i know nuts about it XD.

days have been hectic. yet relaxed.

ytd i just did the bkgrd for the X skin
and today i coded it.
go http://mic-test123.blogspot.com to check it out (:

i shall play less soccer.
soccer phobia.

and when is our f50 gonna be back D: .

i shall go mug alr.

lyrics.OF.the.DAY

As of you in my memory is still shining in my heart. Passing by me, soaking me with flowing tears. I'm lying here in deep red to comfort my pain. I will never again give out these memories that keep love away from me. As I continue to shout, you're running from something that has been stalking you, but can't you see that I'm alone?

2007-04-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

being too close for comfort.
screw my maths. i dun no a single thing about it.

i still duno how to spell PT till now.
surface area. BLAHH. i hate formulas.
then what major minor arc.
then what chord.

stupid KL todae ram a ball right into me.
then i just lay on the floor. nearly black out.
it was damm pain.
just sit on the floor for like 10 mins.
sms and sms and sms.

then stupid daniel. fuck him.
oh. and suddenly i feel nikidas so ancient. hahaha.

lyrics.OF.the.DAY

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

2007-04-02T21:00:00.000+08:00

i am happy todae (:
coz i passed my chinese test. whee~
on a second note... my skin got the top in top 15 rated in bs!.

hah loook at the screenshot urself.
skin name is " i walk beside you.-ILS"

the heat is back on.
the rr is yet running on the track again.
i can see my beloved RR alr.
and lets hope we can create a legacy with it.
our target- (in index)
150-1500
190-2000
300-2400-2600
450-2900
straight-7000.
and i am working with haoyi again! XD

2007-04-01T17:41:00.000+08:00

when the world dies on me, everything equates to nothing.

the old teejay/tj that you know has died.
the history cant be change alr.
look forward to the future.
since i cant make pple change.
i change myself.

2007-03-31T16:04:00.000+08:00

to leave the beige gates of mine, out to the open.
to play, to laugh, to have fun.

last week at least i played soccer everyday.
lets see this week.

monday: i played 2 hrs of soccer.
tuesday: abt 1 half hr of soccer
wednesday: i had IT'em
thursday:record day
friday:IT'em.

when was the last time i went out with my friends....
it was monday 12th March with IT'em pple to kbox.

MY LIFE IS STRESSED DD: .

ACADEMICS ARE SCREWED.
CCA IS SCREWED.
FRIENDS ARE SCREWED.
WHAT ELSE?
NOW EVEN THE SEATING PLACE IS SCREWED.

FUCK MY LIFE.

one song can represent my feelings now: voiceless screaming.
and one song can represent my feelings to you: i walk beside you.

can i just like go out for like oncee?
pretty pleaassssseeeeeee?

FCUK.

2007-03-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

oh. hi pple to my dead blog.

i am soo in love with this song now : D.i must thank joyc for it! I LOVES HER LOAD.

LOVE LOVE. XD

and my seating plan... erm.. sadded!
oh. and i was like diu lian in irene class. ahaa. i greeted the teacher alr. than he nvr hear me say i nvr greet him. wtf. then what. say i yr 1. yr 4s no brain ah... no wonder SAP. I AM A SC, HOW CAN BE YR 1. GET A LIFE.

item was ok.... yea. life is kinda boring these days.

but they are setting up the f1 track again!! YAY.. CAN PRACTICE RR LE! WHEEE~
I LOVE MY MKII silencer technology. XDXD

i walk beside you,wherever you are,no matter how far

2007-03-27T20:07:00.000+08:00

oh lets just see the seating plan and you would know why i am screwed

haha. imma screwed. just change place would you? make my life far better

u just hurt me so much, the faith is lost.
why did you do that. did you know it hurts.
the faith i had, it hurts more than a knife pierced into my heart.
if i knew nothing

2007-03-22T18:58:00.000+08:00

finally i have sometime to post. haha

first thing to say. i am NOT emo. hhaha.

the past few days was like kinda busy with geog rice album. played soccer like everyday? hahah. was very crap lar.

it is a sin a to kill a bastard, they do nothing but bark.
it is a sin to kill a GL, they do nothing but fcuk

thats was what we invented today. haha. coz the stupid banglas so take up to court and treat that it is theirs. yea, so kuanliang and i started talking about kill a mockingbird. abt how atticus when to save the guy who RAPED the girl and stuff. then the 2H guy(forgt his name) and vincent pushed us to the corner and said that pple maybe sensitive. then we just laughed. aint we evil? then we keep talking talking talking talking talking till we sian then go home. hahaha. damm funny. then got the hit head 10k pts game. hahaha.

then i and daren went to buy our 1.5 litres of green tea! it has been the third day alr.. ahhahahaha. i and daren just LOVE GREEN TEA. HAHAHAH. then we went to the train. then i wanted to pass on the escalator. Then hit sean head. nxt thing we know, mr derek biollo was holding the bar. we tio shock. hahaha...
then on the train it was veh funny.

CONTENTS HAS BEEN REMOVED DUE TO SOME PERSONAL REASONS

darick is really funny sometimes. hahah

Live is tough, live it through.
the ending result is fancyful.

Where's the answer - Is this forever

2007-03-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

oh. finally extracted some time to post on my beloved blog. it seemed ages since i ever posted. hahahah.

so friday i just slacked at home. then saturday my beloved byrn chua went to tell me that he dun have rice for us. zzz. so i chionged dwn( yea i pratically like just grabbed any clothes wear on take some money frm my mum take my key hp and wallet and poof! within like 10 mins i am walking to the mrt alr. hahah. then i met darick coz both dan and daren nt free. ( it actly gave darick time to slack coz he is sianing in his xi ju ).so we went to whr byrn sugessted us to buy the rice and wth?! there is no rice at all. zzz. then we called boshi and he said he have three types. my hse has one so we just bought one and YAY! case closed. XDXD.

sunday erm? just like went to the arcade and stuck there for veh long. spent abt 7 bucks.. oops! initial d was fun. heh. then played the basketball. then went to joyce hse to do erm nth? then went to buy van present.

today was funny. i was talking to yc. then he suddenly put his hands over my shoudler and pushed me to walk faster i tot what happened. the nxt thing i know. siewting said"hello tj" and zoomed off to her seat. hahahahhahaa. damm funny lar. heh....

geog rice album. urgh.

2007-03-16T13:26:00.000+08:00

ahh. it has nearly been a wk since i updated my blog.

hectic life i have this holiday.

monday i had xi ju till 3. then went to kbox with item to SING. yea.. but it is just some bonding time within us bah. i am glad item is close to perfect now. though there are still cracks and fault. and of coz something surprising still happen from time to time.

tuesday. VCAMP. played burnout revenge, erm. just slack lor. had nothing to do anyway. then zenn became HAIyi. and haoyi became zenn.

wednesday. screw it. we were late for half an hr that the personincharge went to call mr lim ZZZ.

thursday. went to dan hse. we did the xi ju. i memorized my script more or less. then went to eastpt to buy rice. then found out bryn have. so we din buy lor. then we go play arcade. had a few perfect drift. HAHAHAH. was 1st all the way xD. then played bball. damm fun leh XD. then daren left. so we went to buy our file which cost like 9 bucks. after that we wanted to buy sth for van. stupid daniel told me that tm has cinnamoroll. so we went there. in the end dun hav. wth. then daniel went to buy his handphone pouch. and his mum said he is like girl so vain XD. then i kept pulling him to the neoprint shop. i was rather gay XD. then got converse sale. omgosh. damm bloody cheap the stuff. i must admit. then we cant find anything for van. then i called sheryl. then she din know hu was i. amazing. sorry if i shocked you :X.went to dan hse to complete some stuff then i went back home....

friday... i duno what wud happem

saturday and sunday. fcuk it.

i am currently nt feeling right
yea.. so sorry if i ap in ANY way :X

2007-03-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

rgp is rather over

it was screwed. only meryvn got timing.

our constant, 800.1000.1500 all flopped.

when our time, gary came. meryvn came, yc came. olivia was sliding batteries and throwing her thumbdrive over. everything was in a mess. and haoyi programmed a 1518 for a 150 turn. wow.

i was slacking there like mad. o2jam.half life 2, dota, flight sim, fifa. all types of games you see us playing. my adaptor was screwed. it was stepped on. urgh. now must use desky.

finally went hmv today.

dir en grey was 74 bucks
X B.O.X was 73 bucks..

so ended up with my chemical romance-the black parade.
then olivia wanted to buy u2. but then we no money.
she got fall out boys and the ataris though.

i was playing gears of war. ahah

went with olivia to check out lots of thing today, sehhiser PX 200. :D

poke poke gary xD

i am tired yawn. i rather enjoyed the process of rgp. although it was a flop.
IT show was pack.

"if you could get me a drink of water,
cause my lips are chapped and faded"

TJ

2007-03-09T05:47:00.000+08:00

the heat is on. RR is just like 2 hrs away?

it is not the end that matters.. onli the process is.. un[IT]y

we maybe back

love ya item pple always xD

oh. i have no confidence in my screwed robot :X

and i gotta thank joyc for the full discography.
i love longing~togireta melody~ and endless rain and forever love.
my heart is melting :D

and i just screwed my english and chinese test.. geog test was a FLOP too. i am such a sucker. :X

sing without you, i'll sing without you
can't you feel my heart, falling through the rain
i sing without you, i will sing without you
can't you hold my tears,cause i'll still love you

RGP 07, a memorable event of o7. love ya....
esp my 6.2 record xD

TJ

2007-03-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

im screwed.

bloody test are just tml.
i just cant seem to memorize anything.
i hate these days.

let them pass quick.
gotta stay late for RR tml.

i feel like doing a jt skin suddenly.

heck me, i am feeling not very good now.
i am drowning is sorrow, just ignore me.

when everything is going to end, then wake me up

my desk is so messy.
my life even messier

only you are a console xD

erm. soccer on tuesday was ok lar.

screwed me

2007-03-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

i changed my phone. ahh.. finally! wheeee

test are coming up. ahh. i hate it.

ok.. my alarm is ringing, i gotta go.

firefox pwns all. haha.

and i am screwed. gahh.

TJ

f00d4t0t

2007-03-03T21:09:00.000+08:00

some food for thought:

lordoftherings is zhikang

LordOfTheRings: now doin comparative essat
essay*
★TIANJUEN.: what is that for?
u mean the poem analysis
LordOfTheRings: the poems loh
compare wan ★TIANJUEN.: LOL
LordOfTheRings: ???
★TIANJUEN.: you haven do yet?!
pro
LordOfTheRings: the
i wan in china
XD
★TIANJUEN.: hahahahhahahahaha
LordOfTheRings: i was
★TIANJUEN.: i tot u went dubai?
LordOfTheRings: wah lao
★TIANJUEN.: HAHAHHA
LordOf
TheRings: the fukin sean say i do dubai u beleive arh
ma de
LordOfTheRings: dubai wher got ppl celebrat CNY?
★TIANJUEN.: no lar
LordOftheRings: fcker sean
★TIANJUEN.: joyce went dubai
LordOfTheRings: O.o
lols
didnt noe that sia
XD
LordOfTheRings: da niu got do with her?
★TIANJUEN.: nah he din
LordOfTheRings: why?
★TIANJUEN.: duno
dan nt interested anymore
LordOfTheRings: O.o
so who interested?
Sean?

dubai trip? heh

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freak life

i did a new X skin.
inspired by one of the G2000 themes quite long ago, saw it in my collections of pics.

and a new beginning is starting. all at a week end

2007-03-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

life has been busy these few days.

i gave up on life utterly.

it has been a torture.

i am not living from now on.

excluding you that is

-on the verge of destruction.

playing soccer under the rain was fun,
my memory was erased temporarily.
xD

i am finishing the unfinished

TJ

2007-02-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

it has been a rather busy week for me.

i wrote this bloody 1000 word analysis for poem analysis for a start which took me to 1am

i got two more albums of hide: hide your face&king of psyborg style. currently finding psyence and jazoo.

~~i want this as my bdae pressie. hah.~~

wants this. the last one.
titled "the last live"

and i shall get myself on the verge of destruction. heh.

i submitted a skin at bs. go see?

blogskins.com/me/nikidas
slowly navigate!

the fcuking science project is nt out, haix. shall go fabricate results tml and pia.

and stupid daniel is doing NOTHING for ANYTHING and when i ask him to do some tweeny little bit of i&e he starts shouting.just fcuk off would you?

RR i am getting back mk2, but i doubt i am free this week :X. so that means i am left with one week for RR, pia all the way!!

and yes, i designed a few geog covers through midnight. coz i was doing my dumb maths.

everything is piling on me, everything seems so foreign now. i am not me anymore

YES, i am getting the phone as you, HAH

guide me out of this insane world,
as i clock back to the love history.

that was random. mind you xDD

LEMONed IceScream! <3
wheeee.

i am melted by flame and doubt

FLAME - HIDE

Dear my sun. Should I know how low & low?
Dear my moon. Should I know how low & low?
Dear my stars hoshi no nageki kikeba
Like a wind honno chisana koto darou

Kanashimi wa mune hirogete
Kimi no kata wo daku darou
Yasashigena furu mai de kimi ni karamaru
It's a flame of sadness

Dear my mind donna fukou ni demo
Say hello ieru kimochi hoshii
Dear my hurts itsumo kakaeteita
Like a wind omoi mono suteyou

Yoru no kaze abiteireba
Wasurerareru koto nara
Sono hohaba hirogete miru
Mae yori mo zutto

Warau tsuki no aoi hikari
Kizu wo sotto tojiteyuku yo
It's a flame of sadness urisosogu kanashimi sura dakiyose
Life is going on kareru made aruiteyuku dake
It's a flame of sadness

Dear my sun. Should I know how low & low?
Dear my moon. Should I know how low & low?
Dear my stars. Hoshi no nageki kikeba
Like a wind. Honno chisana koto darou

Uru hoshi wo kazoe oetara naku no yamete aruiteyukou

Flame of misery itoshisa wo nikushimi wo uketomete
It's a flame of sadness mune no naka de kudai teshimae subete
Pieces of sadness urisosogu ame ga yandara yukou
Life is going on kareru made aruiteyuku dake
Stay free my misery
. . .my misery

TJ

& i am sorry

2007-02-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

eh. harlo pple! dropped by to say hi before i go offline(it rhymes)
life sux now DD:
and my har is damm bloody short. blahh.

and RR is in two wks time. i wanna cry alr. blahh

ok. everything was my fault can?
or at least treat it as my fault.
it makes me feel better. from all the suffering i went through.
igetmorehurtwhenyouarehurt
stop it, give me a break.
i promise everything, stop this insane madness now.
art of life, an eternal bleeding heart.
~~iheartyou, youheartme~~

epilogue ended, case closed, game over.
i lost. utterly.

TJ

there.it is gone.

2007-02-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

it doesnt exist in my dictionary anymore.
the world is totally immense insane.
i cant take it anymore.

i fallen, slumped, utter defeated,
arent you happy now?
you won
i lost.
game over.

& i have had enough of everything

2007-02-19T19:38:00.000+08:00

yes. enough. enough of everything. i cant stand it anymore.
today is the limit
eternal sadness overwhelmed.

i am not in a mood to laugh and smile and to be carefree.
i have to face reality. that unrealistic reality.
the smile on my face faded.
the joy from my heart wore off.
yes, lets stop the fairytale here.
impossible is ~~nothing~~ EVERYTHING.
lets write the last chapter.
the chapter of eternal farewell.
i wish that i could unwind to the past.
leave the shattered heart there
and let time heal it.

i ~~love~~ ONCE LOVED you,
for now, that is history

TJ

2007-02-19T00:46:00.000+08:00

i fell into despair. i am lost. i am falling, into the bottomless pit.

CNY SUX. blah. no recount. no pics. no fond memories. just a piece of black. darkness.

BEAUTY & STUPID - HIDE

kizatsu suru you na koui no naka
kimochi uru you ja koi mo awa
koshi furu nazu kazoetemo
totemo honki nya narenai Ai ai
anata konomi no sixty-nine
Iya yo yamete no OK sign
moshi mo ai nara magai mono de
kuri no hanasakya bye bye bye bye

You make me love love
I give you my gun gun

namae shiranai futari no mama nara
wakari ae chatta no ni ne

I just wanna make love
dakedo I don't wanna fall in love

are yo kore ya to kongara gacchau no
itsu no miniyara sonna nacchau no
shiroi tanima de madoru n de ireba
mune no doko kaga zuki zuki Shakin' shakin'
kanari Cool ni kidottemo
yappari shuuru na kokoro moyou
sakete toore nu amai wana ni
migoto wa matte Ah ah ah
Is this love potion?
You've got love mashinkan
koroshimonku wa dainamaito na
namida tsubushita kimi no Smile

Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
(Baby love you, Love you like an animal)
Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha

I just wanna make love
dakedo I don't wanna fall in love

usoha hyaku narabete mite mo ne
bake no kawa haku ga sare chatteru yo ne
horechattara makechatteru yo ne
maji dattara No no no no

kizatsu suru you na koi no naka
kimochi mechakucha haato barabara
horeta hareta de shoubu noreba
itomotayasuku gu kara dorei yo
mekuru meku yo na hibi oyoi de
mawari meguttatsuke kakaete
hana o meshimase Fake no bara o
migoto sakasete High high high

You're beauty queen of love
I'm stupid slave of love
I kiss on your Knees
Let me do what you want
kimi no omocha ni sasete

Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
(Baby love you, Love you like an animal)
Beauty & Stupid A-ha-ha
(Baby love me yeah! I wanna be you're dog)

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and i miss you, i really do.
when would you come back, to cure my cny blue?

TJ

p.s go nikidas-demo blog to see mmy hide skin

chinese new year = saddedness

2007-02-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

Celebration - X Japan

(SO TIRED)
norari kurari no CHEAP TIME
I'M NEVER SATISFIED
gozen sanji no TV SHOW
sagesumu kuchibiru kara wa SEX APPEAL

(BITCH)
mikakedaoshi no HYPER LADY
I'M NEVER SATISFIED
tatta gofun no CELEBRATION
kinyou no asa made nya kieusero!

mayonakasugi no CINDERELLA yo...
GLASS no kutsu wa mou iranai

ELITE kidori no PINOCCHIO no hana wa
orete hia ni naru
tokeishikake no DNA
MANEQUIN domo no BABBLE wa 9 to 5

imaimashiku moekuruu taiyou wo
hikizuri orose
machiwabiteta toki wa semaru
mittsu kazoeru madenya keri tsukero!
(1 2 3 YOU GOT IT!!)

NEW YORK kara ore no heya made
kuroi CURTAIN de oitsukuse VELVET NIGHT

* HEY! CELEBRATION!
RING A BELL!! SWING YOUR HEART! SING A SONG!
HEY! CELEBRATION!
THROW AWAY! SAIL AWAY SHOUT IT OUT! SHOW IT OUT!

COME ON! CELEBRATION!
murasaki no SMOKE AND ILLUSION
STAND UP! REVOLUTION
LIMOUSINE ni hi wo tsukero

when the clock struck at midnight
the coach turned into a pumpkin and
the dress became a rug!
and only a glass slipper was left behind
suddenly Cinderella crushed it and
she kicked her fuckin' onld stepmother out
and, she started for the real celebration
that would start very soon

SUPANKOORU no tsuki ga warau machi
FINAL no koe wa todokanai

[* repeat]

COME ON! CELEBRATION!
aoi chi no WINE wo
CHEERS! CONGRATULATIONS!
sekaijuu ni LET IT FALL
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and i seriously wanna fuck toshi. after so long then he say wanna reunite. if it is like that at first then jiu bu yao disband. if nvr disband, hide may not die.seriously fuck toshi. urgh.he suck can? blahh.. and his song sux.

cny is here. omgosh. i am soo dead. i hate it. >< . hu can save me?

pink spider. blah

TJ

S-A-K-A-E-S-U-S-H-I-&-O-U-T-I-N-G

2007-02-17T12:52:00.000+08:00

i can say ytd was damm bloody fun. i was late coz i was in hmv finding X discs. apparently i went the wrong section. wtf. then i recieved boshi sms to find them at bowling alley. so i went over. luckily i came in time. so i played with them. i guttered so many times. urgh. i only have one spare in two games. now , picture that. isnt that pathetic? of cause i was the second last. with kuan liang as the last. HAHAHAH.we went to the arcade to play one daytona race. i was the first. it was kuan liang. he was laughing like mad then at the last second i overtook him.muahahah. then after that we walked over to suntec coz we wanted to buy some bloody dye for the stupid science project. so we went there lar. then duno why they talk abt sth.... erm.. cant say, hhaah...

then we went to carrefour to but the dye. then i know it is the first floor. so we went dwnstairs and on the way i saw a electronic keyboad. tried to play part of art of life piano solo.. ahaha...(amazing i am listening to art of life now).
then i saw the chocolate fountain. -loves-. LOL. then we went dwnstairs lar. then the bloody pple says it is at second floor. so impossible. then boshi say it was three so we went to sakae lor. then at first we tot only at conveyor belt so i ate them bloody little. then boshi told me that as far it is 1.90 even in the menu also can. so in the end i ordered a lot and ate. too sad i din take pictures of what i ate.haha. then boshi they al left first as they were very full. soon after we left too. ahh yes. b4 that at the toilet i had handful of water which i splatted at darick. : DD, then we went carrefour to ask the guys again whr is they dye. then kl just said to make agar-agar then the guy immediately know whr is it alr. so funny. thenm kl said" nxt time say agar agar can alr, save the trouble".

so after we bought the dye we went to find them. they played finish arcade and wanna go adiidas. so we played one daytona again and a basketball game. then we called them. to find they watche protege. LOL. then i suggested bowling again. but then we all broke alr. so in the end, we went home lor. and the best joke was that sean parents asked him to go bugis for dinner. i wondered how is he able to eat after eating so many sakae... LOL......

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i designed this X skin.

pictures sources joyc.
the rest is done by me. nice right ? muahaha
______________

happy chinese new year everyone and have a fun time. rock on pple! xDD
rmb to give me part of ur red packets earning can alr xDDD

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so here are the pics.

kl and sean : DDD

sean taking a picture of his food

sakae menu

endless food

more food!

emphaise is on my plates vs sean's. nt the two guys

kuanliang picking up his food

in a midst of snatching camera

round one completed

the interupted my picture taking. hrmph

with clearer picture

boshi's table round 1

kuan liang and his menu

duno what kl is doing

kl.. again

sepia moment

a bonus pic. forever love art cover

fun it was ytd
YEA!

TJ

cold frozen heart

2007-02-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

Unfinished - X Japan

Oh! I'm looking at you
can't control myself
nothing, but pain for me

* wipe your tears from your eyes
just leave and forget me
no need to be hurt anymore

# go away from me now
I don't know what is love?
no need to be hurt anymore

you said, "I miss you so much
everynight thinking of you
and facing loneliness"

?But when you feel sadness
never can I stay with you

I'm not the one you need
close your eyes and forget me
there's nothing I can do anymore

I lost my way

I've been walking in the night of tears
there I found someone was holding you
as the night was falling down
with my love also vanished my vision of you

my heart is cold now

[* repeat]

you said, "I need you always
everyday thinking of you
and living loneliness"

[?repeat]

[# repeat]

can't find my way

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done this X skin. finally!!!! i am so tired. yawn. bye pple. i shall go slp.

RMB DUN LINK ME.

the blue frozen heart,
numb from all feelings.

TJ

and LOL. the real thing starts here

2007-02-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

after everything has passed, i shld have a fresh start.
ahah.. and i changed my blog url. i wanna make this private, in some way.
so if in anyway i told you my blog url, pls dun link me. i dun wish the sch and some of my seniors to know. so pls. pple. keep it private. yupp. will post sakae photos asap when i take themm xDD

life is a road, a journey;
at the end, i wanna be at the beginning with you

TJ

colorless love

2007-02-14T20:06:00.000+08:00

Crucify My Love- X Japan

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way

Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever

Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way

'Til the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear clouds away
Oh Is it a crime to love

Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever

If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
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and vdae was digusting, i was lonely too. the only parnter i got was bryn. luckily still got himm, or i nt i can go die seriously. hhahha.. played soccer on vdae. dun sound interesting, wasnt interesting to add.. i was just like stoning there lor. so much pple dun feel like chasing the crappy ball. so i just slacked there. i still prefer the teamgeist ball frm kuanliang. the ball frm zhou hong ( though is also adidas) was lousy lar. cant kick one, the feel is not there. cant kick well with that. blah.

this valentines was unforgettable. with the act of sean. thks a bunch.

when love became hatred,
everything that is impossible seems possible again

TJ

p.s my com bsod twice b4 i managed to let it boot it up. blah.

time after time. history repeated

2007-02-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

DAHILA-X Japan

DO NOTHING BUT CRY
DAY AND NIGHT
kako to mirai no hazama de
kawaranai omoi
kirei na uso ni kaete mo... ALL ALONE

hateshinai yozora ni nagareru
namida wo dakishimete... mou ichido
OH MY DAHLIA
kokoro wo yurasu kanashimi wa
kazoe kirenai hoshi ni naru kedo

YOU DON'T KNOW
WHERE YOU'RE GOING TO GO
mayoi no naka de hirogeta
kodoku no tsubasa namida no umi wo koetara

YOU'LL SEE BLUE SKY
katachi no nai yume de mo ii
ashita no kaze ni kagashite
habataku... ima
TIME AFTER TIME
YOU TRY TO FIND YOURSELF
nagareru toki no naka de
tenai kizu dakishime
setsunasa no kaze ni mau

DREAM ON YOUR LEFT
DEAD ON YOUR RIGHT
aoi yoru wo dakishimete
ashita wo toikakeru
mujyun darake no kokoro ni... DEAD OR LIVE

eien no ichibyou ni nagareru
namida wo kazaranai de... mou nido to
OH MY DAHLIA
daremo ga motsu kokoro no kizuato ni
nagareru ame wa...

TIME AFTER TIME yoru no sora ni
umareta imi toikakeru
taenai namida no kawa
giniro ni kagayaku made

tsumetai kaze ni fukarete
tobitatenai toritachi ga
sorezore no yume dakishime
yoake no sora wo...

TIME AFTER TIME
YOU CRY IN REALITY
nagareru jikan wo tomete
nagashita namida no kiseki
gensou no hana ga saku
____________________

i was so naughty today. i was playing need for speed during science lessons LOL. then IandE i was slacking lor. so sian. and our RR went mad again. YAY. it went kuku. according to mr lim. HAHA. i am nt doing anymore RR for the wk. YAY... wheeee

would you take the bet?
when u have a 50:50 chance

i wont

TJ

& when flowers fall, life is lost

2007-02-12T21:32:00.001+08:00

i am just tired of everything.

ART OF LIFE - X Japan

Desert Rose
why do you live alone
if you are sad
I'll make you leave this life
are you white blue or bloody red
all I can see is drowning in cold grey sand

The winds of time
you knock me to the ground
I'm dying of thirst
I wanna run away
I dont know how to set me free to live
my mind cries out feeling pain

I've been roaming to find myself
how long have I been feeling endless hurt
falling down rain flows into my heart
in the pain I'm waiting for you
can't go back
no place to go back to
life is lost. Flowers fall
if its all dreams
now wake me up
If its all real
just kill me

I'm making the wall inside my heart
I don't wanna let my emotions get out
it scares me to look at the world
don't want to find myself lost in your eyes
I've tried to drown my past in grey
I never wanna feel more pain
run away from you without saying any words
what I dont wanna lose is love

Through my eyes time goes by like tears
my emotions losing the color of life
kill my heart
release all my pain
I'm shouting out loud
insanity takes hold over of me

Turning away from the wall
nothing I can see
the scream deep inside
reflecting another person in my heart
he calls me from within
"All existance you see before you must be wiped out:
Dream, Reality, Memories
and yourself"

I begin to lose control of myself
my lust is so blind, destroys my mind
nobody can stop my turning to madness
no matter how you try to hold me in your heart
why do you wanna raise these walls
I dont know the meaning of hatred
my brain gets blown away hearing the words of lies
I only want to hold your love

Stab the dolls filled with hate
wash your self in their blood
drive to the raging current of time
swing your murderous weapon into the belly
"the earth"
shout and start creating confusion
shed your blood for pleasure
and what? For love?
what am I supossed to do?

I believe in the madness called "Now"
past and future prison my heart
time is Blind
but I wanna trace my love
on the walls of time over pain in my heart

Art of life
insane blade stabbing dreams
try to break the truth now
but I can't heal this broken heart in pain
cannot start to live, cannot end my life
keep on crying

[guitar solo]

Close my eyes
time breathes I can hear
all love and sadness melt in my heart
dry my tears
wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life outside my walls

You can't DRAW A PICTURE of yesterday, so
you're painting your heart with your blood
you can't say "No"
only turning the wheel of time
with a rope around your neck
you build a wall of mortality and take a breath
from between the bricks
you make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them
you're trying to commit suicide
you're satisfied with your prologue
now your painting your first chapter black
you are putting the scraps of life together
and trying to make an asylum for yourself
you're hitting a bell at the edge of the stage and
you are trying to kill me

I believe in the madness called "Now"
time goes flowing, breaking my heart
wanna live
can't let my heart kill myself
still I haven't found what I'm looking for

Art of life
I try to stop myself
but my heart goes to destroying the truth
tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
do I try to live, do I try to love
in my dream

[piano solo]

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart
I just wanna let my emotions get out
nobody can stop
I'm running to freedom
no matter how you try to hold me in your world
like a doll carried by the flow of time
I sacrificed the present moment for the future
I was inchains of memory half-blinded
losing my heart, walking in the sea of dreams

Close my eyes
rose breathes I can hear
all love and sadness melt in my heart
dry my tears
wipe my bloody face
I wanna feel me living my life
outside my mind

Dreams can make me mad
I can't leave my dream
I can't stop myself
don't know what I am
what lies are truth?
what truths are lies?

[guitar solo]

I believe in the madness called "Now"
time goes flowing breaking my heart
wanna live
can't let my heart kill myself
still I havent found what I'm looking for

Art of life
I try to stop myself
but my heart goes to destroying the truth
tell me why
I want the meaning of my life
do I try to live, do I try to love

Art of life
an Eternal Bleeding Heart
you never wanna breath your last
wanna live
can't let my heart kill myself
still I'm feeling for
a rose is breathing love


TJ
in my life

& when flowers fall, life is lost

2007-02-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

the last regret. "my love for you never change"- say anything; X Japan

2007-02-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

for how long have i not been posting a detailed post? so much thing has happened these few days that i feel that it is worth posting abt.

-i got back my laptop. the efficiency surely can pwn my sis com. muahahaha. i love my com as much as you that is.my laptop is my 2nd laogong! xDD
- thursday soccer was FUN. scored a few goals. whee~ it was fun lar. i declare that soccer once a week is really a good way to destress.
-i am mugging mugging and mugging.
and blah.
- my dear sean actually. ahemz.

life now i can say is rather cool. xDD.

TJ