oh yes, i do love you.

self note :

Revise Bio : Sexual Reprod. In Humans & Inheritance.

Do ACE Presentation : settle the template, research on social justice, do slides

Read History Readings : Prepare for essay.

Read up on berlin Blockade

Revise Stats : Box & Whiskers, Quartile Ranges, Percentages, Diagrams etc.

Finish up HCL presentation.

oh and i do love you, paperstar

light my fire

well well well.
i'm here to blog at this pathetic blogging system again. D:

i duno what to say.
my life's kind of messy.
blehhhhhh.


holidayyyy hommeeewooorrkkk iii'''mmmmm cooommmiiinnngggggg~~~~~~~~~~

sad face D:

lol. i was thinking that day.
my life was kinda weird throughout my secondary life so far.

sec 1 - IT'em. it was a ITem year. every thing i did circled around ITem. when i go out, it had to be ITem. IT'em was my life. it was a ideal cca. i loved it to bits.
but all it going to change?

sec 2 - x & blogskins.
it had to be x. both the band and someone. X played a big part of my life. it changed my life. jrock was introduced. i was influenced into it, insanity takes off after me. x was worst, i seem to be obsessed with x. im glad it is over. blogskins. i get to know jacq and a couple more like bessy and mad. tho we have not been talking much these days. life is getting busy.... although i've quitted. i must thank blogskins for letting me know these guys.

sec 3- LUNA SEA, Kiyoharu, laraku, gazette @ SGCLUB and more...
the breakthrough was from last.fm. knowing shana and kozika.
LUNA SEA was not influencial. but still. it was kinda cool.
Kiyoharu. wow. is there anything to say about this? <3
laraku, well, it redefined jrock. definitely.
gazete is cool!
SGCLUB let me have the chance to know alot of pple. alot of jrockfans.
its kinda cool.

what is yr 4 going to be?

i must say,
leading a double life sucks.

on one side, i have to hang out with the japanese haters. (but well, maybe hentai lovers D:) but they are sure cool in the other sense like com games and outings and stuffs.

on the other side, i have a bunch of pple who are far older than me, but the love for japan is even more crazy compared to me. however, i seem weird, seem.... left out....because of the age gap.. well im not sure... im seem to be in the middle of this transition.... from....breaking away from this.... old TJ that you know.... transforming into a .. more.... im not sure...

whatever it is, i just wish that i stay happy. and not with this emo crap conflict within myself. one point trying to pull back to the dhs lifestyle. and another me, is trying to be someone different. im not sure what to say. im not sure who i like, and who i hate. i do not even know what do i want now. *slits wrist 10000 times*. screw this, im not getting any better from my emo.

emo z0r XD

"mescaline anyone?"

lol.
i must clarify

TJ is my initials. eh. gotcha?
teejay is how you pronounce it, yea practice it.
tianjuen is my full name. can't pronounce it? go back to the 2nd sentence of this paragraph.


:D

after everything.
my life is settled...
i'm back (: